I have not weighed in 10 days or more and quite honestly I don't want to weigh because putting my jeans on this morning tells me what I already know. I have put on weight. I'm going in the wrong direction and it's my fault. I've been on a downward spiral since Thanksgiving and so far I have not been able to kick start my weight loss. I want carbs..............I want sugar.................I want diet (or not diet) pop........I do not want to exercise. I've totaly forgotten how to eat well for my body to be healthy!
A couple of observations that I have made:
- I felt much more alert when I was off all of the sugar & carbs following my surgery (previous to surgery, I had a really hard time staying awake. I was always yawning and sleepy)
- I had way more "get up and go" following my surgery. My "get up and go has got up and gone" I am quite content to sit and watch TV or read
- After surgery, when I was eating according to my surgeon's guidelines, I was NOT hungry or even thinking about food all the time. NOW, I think about food constantly!
- When I drink lots of water I do not have as many headaches....as of late, almost every day I am having headaches
Plan of action - Well I guess one of the first things I should do is make an appointment with the dietician and get back on the plan for eating. Maybe dig out the guidlines that I was given by the dietician prior to surgery. While I'm being honest here I've gotta say that it would be much easier to just keep doing what I've been doing....mindless eating, eating what I want when I want but if I continue to do that then I will continue to get depressed and gain weight.
I don't think my doc will even talk to me about doing a fill until I have talked to the dietician so I'M GOING TO MAKE AN APPOINTMENT TODAY!
I'm going to get my head out of my butt and start make the changes that I know I need to change! And I'm praying that God will give me the strength to push on and be successful at getting this outta shape body in shape! I can't do this on my own, of this I am certain. I'm going to have to get honest with my family and ask them (DH and DD) to help me. I've got to be accountable to them. And I'm going to start journaling my food.....though I really hate this task!
I realize that nothing really profound has come out of this blog today but I think it was good to get it all down in writing!