Sunday, August 30, 2009
I'm basically posting this tonight just to let you all know (however many people actually read this) that I have not forgotten about my blog. I just haven't had time to work on it. Hopefully this week I will do better.
Thanks for checking in!
Sunday, August 23, 2009
However, the going away party was not good for my "diet". We had some great food though I did not overeat which felt good. We sat around a bonfire and I had to have at least a couple of roasted marshmallows. But probably should not have eaten the piece of apple pie! UGGHHH! Ready for that fill!!!!!!!
Saturday, August 22, 2009
This option restricts how much the stomach
can hold by placing an adjustable band
around the upper part of the stomach.
There is no cutting or stapling needed to
divide the upper stomach pouch from the
lower stomach. The result is you take in
less food. But unlike stomach stapling,
the LAP-BAND® System can be adjusted
to suit your situation and can be removed
The LAP-BAND® System uses new surgical
technology to help you lose weight by
reducing how much your stomach can hold
and lengthening the feeling of being full.
(Blast from the past.......pictures from my Senior Year)
Next time.......how we reconnected 20 years later.
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
While he was in Germany, I was finishing up my Senior year of High School and preparing for college. Rick and I had talked many times about getting married, me coming to Germany when I graduated H.S., etc. but of course back home I was hearing "you are so young, you don't know what you want, you don't need to be tied down, give yourself some time, blah, blah, blah!!!" I was very confused during this time of my life and to further complicate things, Rick and I could only communicate via snail mail (yeah, can you believe it....there was no Internet or email back then!) He couldn't even call me on the phone!!!! So I went to college thinking that I needed to make sure that he was THE ONE. I wrote him a letter and told him that I felt we should date around just to be sure.....interesting note here....I would find out years later that the same day that he received my letter in Germany, he had written me a letter asking me to marry him!
I felt horrible sending him a "Dear John" letter but again I was so confused! So without boring you and going into all of the boring details now, we broke up, I dated a couple of guys in college and after dating my former husb for 2 years we were married. We were never happy. I think that we both settled and that's another long story that I won't even start on. Anyway, he and I were married for 17 years before we divorced.
I think I've went on long enough for tonight. I'll have to finish more later on how this story ends up....LOL. But just for a preview check out the picture posted below. That's Rick and I on our wedding day, June 7, 2008!
Sunday, August 16, 2009
10. Run & play with my kids but not be huffing & puffing
9. Wear shorts and not be embarrassed.
8. Walk up a flight of stairs and not be short of breath
7. Leave the lights on ......if ya know what I mean!
6. Sit on my hubby's lap and not worry about hurting him
5. Shave my legs/paint toe nails without straining
4. Buy a sexy sundress and wear it for my husband (his
3. Find myself in more family photos instead of BEHIND the
camera all the time.
2. Have one of those old fashioned "bar maid" pictures made
for my hubby to drool over.
1. Stop being a wall flower because I am uncomforable with
how I look.
Tonight Rick, Bekah and I took a nice walk. Would have walked longer but it is HOT here! I'm ready for Fall which is my favorite time of the year.
Two more days and I'll be two weeks post-op. I'm feeling good though I am hungry more and more. Two ounces of food three times a day is not much food. I am still amazed at how little I am eating. It will probably be a month or so before my first fill which will give me more restriction and help with the hunger thing. I'm still a little sore around my port site which is certainly to be expected considering the dr. sewed the port to the inside of my abdomen wall. But, it's much better than it was initially. I'm down 17 pounds but I'm a little disappointed that I can't even tell by looks or by the fit of my clothes that I am losing. I'm just anxious for someone to see me and notice that I've lost weight.
I'm finally starting to "enjoy" my protein shakes. I'm sipping my second one for the day. They are going down much easier now....thank goodness. I'm supposed to drink two 16 oz. shakes a day. Because I am eating such small amounts of food right now the protein shakes provide the protein that I need to heal properly and stay healthy!
Saturday, August 15, 2009
Last night was date night for Ricky and I. We went to the movies to see "The Time Travler's Wife". WOW...was it a tear-jerker. The place was almost packed and I bet you everyone in there was crying. I know that Rick & I did. It was a good movie but I'm not into SAD movies anymore. I've had enough sadness! When I watch a movie I want to feel good when it's over. I felt like I'd been run over by a truck when we lef the movies last night. Not a good feeling!
Today was a fun family day. We went to my mother-in-law's house for a cookout and game playing. Father-in-law came over too and of course Tony (bro-in-law) was there too. We played a serious came of Monopoly with Bekah and she beat all five of us adults! Eucher and Rummy was also played while I checked out the backs of my eyelids....I really needed that.
I weighed in this AM....down 1 more pound for a total of 17 pounds lost since 8/4. Not too shabby I guess!
Not much else going on and I'm ready for bed. Nite!
Thursday, August 13, 2009
Oh, but before I go to bed I'll let you in on a little secret....ssshhhhhhh! Don't tell my DH!! I emailed him yesterday and told him that I had made plans for he and I Friday night, don't ask questions, just make sure you are home from work NO LATER than 7PM!. He's been a good boy and he has not asked any questions though I know that it's killing him. My plan is that he and I will go out for a quick bite to eat and then to the movies to see the newly released "The Time Traveler's Wife". It's written by Nicholas Sparks (author of "The Notebook" which happens to OUR favorite movie. It's the story of our life!) Anyway, I'm so excited to go have a date with my sweetie and to surprise him about the movie.
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
Thank you Lord for another wonderful day and for giving me renewed strength just exactly when I needed it.
Sorry it so short, but I'm off to bed.
Monday, August 10, 2009
I have to put a little "plug" in here for my 8 year old daughter and my dear hubby. Bekah has been such an encourager and a little "nurse maid". She's very mindful of what Mommy is doing and she asks lots of questions. Tonight she asked for a drink out of my water bottle then she looked at me and said, "Oh, are you keeping track of what you drink. Should I not drink." I assured her that one drink would not matter. She is such a caring little girl. And as for my DH....what would I do without him? He is my rock! He's always encouraging me and trying to make things easier for me. I am so thankful that God gave him back to me.
Speaking of God...duh! I can't sign off without saying how important my relationship with him is to me and this endeavor. I am struggling with depression, doubts, fears and I must admit that I have been busily plugging along, not really even conversing with God about it. I am convicted tonight how wrong I am in that. I know better than that. But thankfully, even when I am failing Him and not giving Him the time and relationship He deserves, HE never leaves me! He continually woo's me. Thanks Daddy for never giving up on me! I promise to work on giving you MORE of the time that You deserve!
We my surgery went very well (on Tuesday, 8/4). I spent one night in the hospital. DH stayed with me. I was up and walking within 2 hours of being brought up to my room. When my feet first hit the floor....OUCH but not nearly as bad as when I had my hyseterectomy 10 years ago. I walked at LEAST every two hours while I was in the hosptial (sometimes hourly). The more you walk the better you feel and it helps with the gas pain from surgery.
I was released shortly after noon on Wednesday the 5th. We made the hour long drive home, I slept most of the way. It felt good to be home. I relaxed in the Lazy Boy the rest of the day/night, dozing off and on.
Thursday, DH went back to work. I spent most of the day in the chair again. Getting up every couple of hours to walk, go to the bathroom. Still taking the prescription narccotics so I was pretty groggy.
Friday I had had enough of the drugs. Switched to liquid Extra Strentgh Tylenol and did very well.
Saturday the depression hit me and I was just sure it wasn't going to happen to me but it did. Part of my problem was that DH was going to have to leave on Sunday for a week long business trip out of state. I was paniced thinking of how could I take care of me and take care of DD, go back to work and get DD ready for back to school.
After a few tense hours, DH's boss said "family first" and cancel the trip! Yeah, I immediately felt better. Slept good that night.
Sunday, lazed around. DD came home from her dad's house. We went to my parent's house for a change of scenery. My dad cooked out on the grill. Though I am supposed to be on full liquids until tomorrow (Tuesday) I was having a really rough time of it. I spoke to my BFF who had lap band done 2 years ago. She said EAT something with flavor! So I ate tiny amounts of green beans, sweet potatoe, cottage cheese and ground beef. It went well though a couple of hours after eating I felt bloated and miserable. Figure that I may have overdone it or eaten to fast or whatever??? It's a learning process.
Today I am 6 days post-op and DUH this whole experience has been much harder than I anticipated. Even though I heard over and over that "it's not going to be easy" and "don't be surprised if you go thru a bit of depression"....yeah right! I thought NOT ME! But I was wrong. The past 2 days have been particularly hard on me, physically and emotionally. I guess physically because I'm NOT 20 anymore and I forget it takes longer for me to heal! Emotionally for several reasons. One being that I keep thinking "Did I make a mistake doing this surgery?", "Am I ever going to feel back to normal", "What if I fail", etc.
I am back to work today (office job) and that truly has helped. I still just feel a little BLAH!
I continue to be discouraged because I can't get my daily fluids in and I HATE the protein shake. I have yet to get the 32 oz daily recommended amount in. While I am complaining, I hate the children's chewable vitamin (I gagged on it this AM)!
Oh one more thing.....I am hungry alot! Can't wait for that first fill but who knows when that will be. My post-op appt. is 9/3.